A Fresh Star

I lost this blog...not sure why I forgot to post it! it's from Sept!! Enjoy!!

I am entering a new phase. For almost two years my life consisted of nothing but work. Actually, longer than that since I had a private practice that occupied much of my time, usually working 6 days a week. The days that I was off, it was to run errands and catch up on all I missed doing. I did not want to exhaust the energy needed to socialize, interact, or hang out, so interaction was minumum, especially in the past 2 years.  So I felt that getting a job and shrinking my private practice, this would allow me more time (as well as a steady income=less stress) with life.  So, I got the job, but found I was working more.  I hate turning clients away, especially teenagers, knowing that they can benefit from therapy.  Then it hit me that as much as I love being a therapist and having a job, some changes needed to be made. From Monday to Thursday I wake up at 5 am, out the house by 6:00-6:30,to drive 1 1/2-2 hours to work, to return to see clients until 8:30. Get home, eat, and prep for the next day. At least one or two weekends a month, travel up and down the mid-Atlantic to work. 

There were things I wanted to do, many things, but my weekends off, I usually would be recuperating. So I have been on a job hunt, hoping for something closer to home. Well I found a job, not closer to home, but it allows me to change my therapy schedule so that I am home in the evenings more. As much as I love being a therapist, I also want to be present for my family. I want to interact with my friends. I want to sit on my couch and be a bum, not because I am recuperating but just to be a bum.  My family means everything to me, my friends keep me grounded, my being a bum allows me to be in tune with me.

Lets keep it real, my time with my daughter is short, soon enough she will be off to college. I love my time with my husband, we've been in each others lives since childhood, don't want to miss out on that. Being with my friends allows a good time, smile, and I can be Mercia!! Having my quiet time alone, allows me to listen to that little voice and check in with me.

I have begun to think of the many things I want to do, learn to sew, learn to speak Spanish, get back to running, take some jewelry making classes, and so on. Hubby told me to me to sit down, relax, and then figured out what I want to do. I think I'm excited that I will have the time to do things. I realized that when I couldn't do things, I missed it so much, I now have more appreciation since I will soon have time.

So here I am, coming upon my fresh start..to start living...and appreciating time and using it wisely!!