So, lets see. I work as a therapist, Clinical Supervisor, provide supervision for Master Level students, and this is all the day work. I work 5 1/2 days a week and into the evenings of 5 of those days. Then I am a wife and mother (my favorite roles). My daughter is 11 and now needs me around more (Dad was cool until she became a girly girl, now Mom is number 1).
Actually let me tell you about my day. So I rarely sleep good, my mind just turns on and can sing a song, think of a tv show, or just some random thought comes up. I don't have to be stressed my mind is just on (the joys of A.D.D).
So back to my point, so I wake up tired, watch my daughter get ready (I am only there to assist with hair and outfit approval these days, oh and making sure she eats). Take her to school or the bus stop (depending on weather, my mood, or how slow we were moving). In between all of this, chasing my puppy around, feeding him, and watching for signs he needs to go out. I get home get dressed, take a power nap sometimes, head to work, then private practice (or meet for supervision) until around 7, get home exercise, eat. Spend time with Skye talking, then yell at her to stop playing around and get ready for bed (I actually don't yell, but have to repeat myself until I put the Mom voice on...then she knows it serious). Spend time with Derrick or the TV depending if he is held up in the man cave, make a pair of earrings to relax, read (if I can stay focused to do so) and then chant before going to bed. Again, I forgot to add I am chasing Chewie around!! (after reading all of this I feel like this could be a dance)
In between all of this I manage to get my hair and nails done sometimes!!
Now, I found my mind and body don't like all that I am doing. I mean I can't sit still, so I do too much, over commit, and push until I hit a wall. Then I take care of myself, and start all over again. This is just how I function. I make sure to leave time to journal, use the bathroom, and just be in the chaos of my life. Did I tell you I often check in with my loved ones to make sure they are doing okay? I try to make sure everyone is functioning!!! Hey I love happy people!!
So now I am trying to figure out how to let something go. I love the work I do and the helping others, but to make my daughter happy, I will sacrifice it all. For some reason the chaos is motivating for me. Yet, I know I am sacrificing time with my daughter, but I feel like I will also lose a little of myself with sacrifice.
I need balance, right. Yet when I am not this busy, then I tend not to want to do anything at all. So, I am cutting my hours as a therapist, but not too many. Then I am setting boundaries at work as a Clinical Supervisor, and as a supervisor for therapist in training, I am only going to see 3. See then there is more time at home with my family and with myself, and still get to do the work I love to do. So there, it sounds easy right? Sounds simple...
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