I'm Back

Its been a while since I have even taken a peek at this.  So much has been going on and how easy it is to let the simple things that bring us pleasure go. I am not sure at this point who I write these for others or more for myself. So here I am in a new year, older, wiser, and feeling younger. I started a new job, which allows me to be home with my daughter and husband more. It is a job that allows me to do presentations and travel, but I don't have to work late in the evenings. I am cutting back in my private practice to focus more on my family and even myself. I love the work that I do and but I recognize my family must and will always come first. My not so little girl needs her mother in this critical time in her life, or is it that I need her?  I think it goes both ways, since we are both adjusting to her new teen ways!! LOL

Wow, I have often spoken about last years struggles but only hint around to them, well with this lovely economy, I had a sudden drop in clients. Folks losing their jobs or having to get jobs, which meant they needed evenings or could not afford to come to therapy at all. I provided more evenings, but then that mean less time at home, but also not everyone could be seen. Suddenly I found that paying my bills was a chore.We were robbing Peter to pay Paul.  I had to pay some things late and other things not at all or send a check and pray they didn't cash it until the money hit. My account took a couple of hits but we made it through.  Many lessons came!!

First I have such an appreciation now for being able to pay my bills on time. I am thankful and haven't complained about paying bills.  I am so happy to pay them.  Next I am now getting so many phone calls and referrals for counseling.  Which is great, but right now I am not able to do it. I am happy to know that my skills are still in demand and will have an opportunity to serve others, when my group of folks have completed their journey with me. Second, SAVE, I mean we saved which definitely got us through but I now recognize changes that I needed to make in my saving and spending.  Then I learned that I am a trooper, I held it down and made it work. I also learned that my husband and I can have some rough times, but we can get through them bigger, better, and stronger. Our family supported us through this difficult time, so I learned that we all need help sometimes.  I also had to learn to say no, I mean I love the work that I do, but can't do it all. I had to learn that I had to turn clients down and refer them out so that I could start being home.  Last, I learned to let go, to heal, to fight.  I could have easily have given up, but didn't. 

I have learned so much about myself and know I am just starting to learn all the parts of me. I am just so honored to be on this journey of life and hope to have so many more experiences to write, talk, and appreciate.